Never before did I hide my emotion,

Never before did I hide my emotion,
Within a casket of delusion,
But now I’ve to learn the technique of suppression,
Because to express them I no longer have the permission.
Coward I was previously,
Never did I stare at anybody rejoice enviously,
But now seeing them laugh and cry freely,
I feel why these things I can’t do affordably.
In this toxic fantasy it is difficult to find,
A person with whom a relation you can bind,
Nobody is as overwhelming as you or is kind,
Kind enough to love being blindfolded as a blind.
Well, you’ll get people around you,
Judging and misjudging you,
Without reason mentally abusing you,
Even sometimes verbally thrashing you.
Destined to be alone, you are always lonely,
Never can you take breaths in this world freely,
Always you’ve to play pickaboo tirelessly,
With your feelings endlessly.