Maybe the reason I’m no longer interested in being in love i

Maybe the reason I’m no longer interested in being in love is because my whole personality is a red flag. I have no sign of self-love and confidence. I have insecurities that I can’t control. It’s hard for me to open up to someone since I’m used at being alone for too long. I also disappear whenever I’m dealing with something with no prior notice. I easily get offended and sometimes I’m defensive too. And when I’m stressed I sometimes act in a childish behavior. There are parts of me that’s unattractive and unacceptable to certain people. Perhaps it’s the reason why I don’t trust love. Because when I love, I give too much to people who don’t deserve it.