Conscious Blankness

Conscious Blankness..

My Instinct or forecasts are very miraculous thing. I have no inkling to its poping up suddenly without any pre-thought. How ! Why !! I have no answers.

But all these are for other persons. Never happened in my own personal issues. In my cases every things happens Suddenly… without any WARNING.

For some time now I been pondering, WHY I AM LIVING? Lost all that I had.
Started business to get involved… many times, but failed not because of me , but all because of STUPID reasons , all the time. Job
that’s another funny issue.. all interviews lasted hour’s, money was no criteria.

PERHAPS I AM TOO DOMINATING.

Have REACHED to A BLANK SPACE… Abys… A Twelight ..
Body and mind lossing its coordination.. all feelings are in Numbness… happiness
love, relief, contentment,
amusement, joy, pride
excitement, peace,
satisfaction, compassion etc etc has lost its valves.
A MAN IN MARGIN, Socially
A USELESSNESS STATUS.

Counting days and wondering, how, when and where the journey of life is GOING to End.

Living the life as an Mystery to live with. But suddenly stepping in an NON REACTIVE STATE of Blankness is CREATING LACK OF CONSENSUS…..

How LONG this SPACE will LAST ….