The gushing in memories flash a movie in front of me,

The gushing in memories flash a movie in front of me,
The end is anonymous,
But quite synonymous,
To tragic cheerfulness
The memories are bad but they bring in such a lot of unexpected smiles on my face,
Which a moment ago were also difficult to trace.
My emotions have lost the grace,
And my soul has lost solace.
Lucifer’s curse is turning into heavenly contentment,
Oh God it’s hurting my sentiment.