not one thing

I’m not broken by one thing,
but by everything at once.
By dreams that I started
but could never finish,
by the words I wanted to say
but swallowed instead,
by the silence of someone I loved more
than I should have,
by the passing of time that never stopped
to let me breathe,
by the way people walked away
without even looking back,
and by the reflection in the mirror that
doesn’t look like me anymore.

I’m broken by the weight of expectations
I couldn’t carry,
by the promises I made to myself
and failed to keep,
by the memories that replay
when I’m trying to forget,
by the way I smile just to hide
how much it still hurts.

And somewhere between being
too strong for too long
and too silent for too many nights,
I forgot how it feels to be whole again🍂❤️‍🩹✨